My first thought of our fandom name; EXO-L

Several days ago, that I forgot when were exactly. EXO stans finally got their official fandom name. It's a big yeeeaayy!
Yeah, after waiting for two years, we, finally knew how to call ourselves.

Okay, I'll go to the point. It's about me, when I heard about that name for the very first time.

I was not on the internet connection back then. When I set my internet connection on, I opened my twitter account and found some people mentioning, retweeting and saying about EXO-L.
seeing that unfamiliar name, I wondered "What is EXO-L?"

I read one of article post and found that it was an official name for EXO fans. Yeah, IT'S AN OFFICIAL FANDOM NAME OMFG!
then I found myself laughed. Yup. So hard. "Damnit. It's really not a freaking good time for a lame joke. I mean, EXO-L? EXO-Love?? Oh Come on. That's too lame even for jokes." /continue laughing/

I scrolled down the time line on twitter and I READ THAT FREAKING EXO-L NAME EVERYWHERE! >_<
and all of those congrats from the fan pages seemed not a joke. "Okay, they are not kidding." I said to myself.

EXO-L for EXO Love? Oh mannn~ that's too cheesy. I mean look at other fandom names. Cassie, ELF, Baby, Melody, Beauty, Starlight. Oh those names sound great to be mentioned. I imagined someday I'll also be called with a good name. But yeah, this is what I got.

I found that some of my friends had a same thought with me, and some of them love that name, and some of them feel that as long as they got name they're okay with it.
/taking a very very deep breath/
I read some fan pages explained about the meaning of EXO-L.
and I made a conclusion myself. Here it is.

EXO-L stands for EXO-Love. It's because EXO love the fans so much and the fans love EXO so much. And the letter 'L' is in the middle of 'K' and 'M'.
So, we, the fans, unite the EXO-K and EXO-M with our love.
and EXO-K, EXO-L, EXO-M are one! Just like our motto: We are one!
Yeah now, we really are becoming one with our beloved EXO. We are the sub-unit of them. We are part of them.

Well, then I tried to accept it and I knew that I will just get use to it. I will call my self an EXO-L and be proud of it. I will really get use to that name. and no matter what name they gave me, I'm still an EXO fans that will give my never-ending support for them. and,
WE ARE ONE! WE ARE EXO-L! Saranghajaaa~ <3

Sincerely,

kamila_057

p.s: I also belong to A.R.M.Y now ^^ and I love that name. Sounds cool. kkk~

It's Always Him from the Start; for Tao

I fell in love to Huang Zitao since I saw him on the first EXO showcase. Since watching it, my heart to the twelve alien wolves grows fonder, day by day. Okay, I was not like watching it exactly before their debut on 2012, I watched it on 18th of May 2013. Not long after I know K-pop though. When I watched the Showcase with my boarding house friends, as usual, we chose our bias from the SM boy-group that we just knew. “Okay, this one looks like a vampire. Really, he is a vampire. Uhmm a cute vampire though. I think I choose this one. I think I like this cute vampire.” I said to my friends, who seem to be shocked by it. Yes, Huang Zitao is my first crush on EXO.

The day after it, I tried to look for the music video of EXO, then I found ‘Mama’,’ History’, and ‘What is love’ (each of them in two versions; Korean and Chinese). When I watched those music videos, I was like “Okay, I also in love with Kai and Luhan.” Just like that, and after it I could not really choose my ultimate bias. I could not deny Kai’s and Luhan’s charm. I felt that I love all the three of them equally.

For several months, I still thought that the three of them are my ultimate biases. Even though my eyes always lay on Tao than the others, I thought that I have to share the equal love to my biases. Back then, when any person asked who is my ultimate bias from EXO, I always answer; Luhan, Tao, and Kai. If someone forced me to choose one, I’ll choose Luhan with a half of my heart. Yes, I thought that it was the right choice, Luhan is an angel, Luhan is perfection, and I didn’t want this perfection to be stolen by anybody. Yes, you right. I betrayed Huang Zitao. I placed him on the second row, even though I didn’t want it. Really, I didn’t ever want to do it.

Then, came a time when I really really have to choose. Choose the right one, choose my ultimate bias’ name to be printed on my wolf 88 t-shirt (about October or November 2013). It was sooooo hard! I tried to recall memories. When the three of them were standing together, I always lay my eyes on Tao. But, Kai and Luhan are the visuals, they looks really really  handsome. Really!! Hard huh? Then, a friend of mine made me realize. She said, “It looks like that you love the panda more. It can be seen clearly.” Am I?? Do I love him that much? Is it written on my face? However, hearing such words made me relief. I don’t really know why. Maybe, all that long I just need someone to ensure me about my feeling. It is because I wasn’t sure about it. I don’t know why shouldn’t I sure about it back then? It is that simple right? Choose one ultimate bias among the twelve. The one I love the most. I have found it, but I denied it. It was because of the two other biases that came after it, and I thought that I wouldn’t will them to be chosen by others (my own friends). But, it was always okay seeing my friends idolize Kai and Luhan. However, when one of my friends watched EXO, pointed to Tao and asked me, “Who is he? He is so handsome. I think I like him.” NO. YOU DON’T. I smiled and said, “Yes. I guess I want Tao’s name to be printed on my t-shirt.”

 

Since then, I could admit it freely. I love the baby kungfu panda soooooo bad. It was always him. From the start, it was always him. Really, it was always him. I just always deny it. I denied, because of the two visuals’ charm that kill me. But, it’s not about who looks more handsome than who. It’s about the one I fell to. The one I’d like to see. The one I’d like to feel the presence. This is about the ultimate bias. Sometimes we just don’t need reason to idolize someone.

One day in early April 2014, it’s almost a year for me as a fandom. I watched the video of the first EXO showcase one more time. The showcase that brought me to this insanity towards the twelve wolves. Then, I saw him. I saw the baby panda like the first time I saw him, when I got crush on him. I could feel myself smile. The scan of my eyes told my brain that he is the perfection. Yes, I like your face. I like your smile. I like your smirk. I like seeing you. I like to feel your presence. I love you. It’s always you from the beginning. It’s always you, Huang Zitao. Sorry for ever denying it. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my Baby~ Please stay healthy. Take a good care of your younger brother Sehunnah, okay? I love you both ;) Like so much!!

Sincerely,

mylo_6894

 pict spam ^_^ plus Tao with everyoneee.. kkk~

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